I lost count long ago of how many times I have started some sort of "thing," in hopes it would be "the thing," that led me to loose all the weigh that I need to. But here I am, again. Starting at day one. Starting over. Again. I wish I could look back on my life and the numerous times I've started something and have a feeling of being proud that I accomplished something. I conquered. I achieved. I hit the target. I met the goal. The reality is that I look back on my